söndag 7 november 2010
torsdag 21 oktober 2010
onsdag 13 oktober 2010
How could I have waited?
Where the hell is that loud sound comming from? Getting kind of freaked out.
Needless to say, I was to paranoid when it came to my pretty bf
So we're cool now. :) Yah.
Had a great time out last saturday. Kisses and hugs to M and M since it was a party to celebrate their birthdays..
Yesterday was 休み！And tomorrow is 休み！
Oh yeah, and my notebook broke down. :( It was the worst 24 hours of my life, seriously. I don't think I've ever cried and pitied myself that much before. Hahahaha. It sounds kind of pathetic when you say it out loud.... ehe... I love my computer and can't even survive a good 24 hours without it. God. That's fucked up man.
Well, now I am going to do some more settings for my newly formated computer. Like, download msn...gash troublesome. The only music I have so far is Fever rays selftitled album and two albums by The Knife. Good enough for me for now. :) Haha.
Oh and I have two songs by 2NE1 too. Can't live without them.
Otherways?
I am kind of scared. Because my back is hurting again. Like... a lot. I find it difficult to move properly and to get up from my bed or the floor. (yes I like to sit in the hallway smokin' thanks) Well, since it's cold outside and I sleep on a really hard bed it can't be helped I guess. But I am afraid that the inflammation is back. The idiotic disease. I hate it. Go away.
I just feel like sleep in my bed in Sweden right now. It's so comfyyy!!!
Other complaints?
Hm... well yeah. One person needs to think before they act. Another person should stay the hell away from MY Tboy. And... I could use some extra money from CSN, about...right now? :) That would be all... I think. Yeah. Probably.
Anything good?
Well yeah, the part about me making up with my man is the best I think. And then there's the part about me being a genius and fixing my computer by myself. Yeah yeah. And then we have.. hm.. my new found loved ones Fever Ray and The Knife. I mean, I have been listening to TK for some years, but never..like really active. And E showed me a MV with Fever Ray the other week so... now it's compleeeete.
And to sum up this messed out post;
My new wallpaper me and M found. Hehe. (It's the one in the upleft corner alrighty?)
Kra...
torsdag 7 oktober 2010
Defeat.
I think it's time for a major breakdown soon.
There is something seriously wrong. Either he's seeing someone else behind my back, or he simply doesn't love me anymore. And ...I acctually don't want to know which, I just wish he would man up and tell me it's over. Because, this is not a relationship.
Lies. Dissapointment. I can't handle this any longer.
I've been down for a long time now. But this makes me wanna go into my safeplace and shut everything out. I hate to say this, but yeah, he was the only reason I decided to stay another year. But I don't think I can handle being away from the ones who truly love me when he tells me. Because even though I'm prepared, I am going to die when he tells me.
And to think he actually have the nerve to send me another fake apology mail when I didn't even responded to the first. Does he actually think I am that stupid?
He is really hurting me. But because I really love that stupid idiot, I am not going to be the one who ends it. I am going to wait until he decides to tell me the truth.
And until then I don't think I want to have any contact with him at all. Because it makes me so sad. And it hurts.
And I HATE to be the person who totally falls in love with someone, and then time after time get dumped.
I seriously wonder, what is wrong with me? Why can't I find someone who actually cares and seriously loves me.
I don't think I want to try anymore. Fuck school. I was only going there so I could stay here and be with him. Totally wasting my time it seems.
But what the hell should I do!?
I can't go home to Sweden and accept defeat can I? Can I?
There is something seriously wrong. Either he's seeing someone else behind my back, or he simply doesn't love me anymore. And ...I acctually don't want to know which, I just wish he would man up and tell me it's over. Because, this is not a relationship.
Lies. Dissapointment. I can't handle this any longer.
I've been down for a long time now. But this makes me wanna go into my safeplace and shut everything out. I hate to say this, but yeah, he was the only reason I decided to stay another year. But I don't think I can handle being away from the ones who truly love me when he tells me. Because even though I'm prepared, I am going to die when he tells me.
And to think he actually have the nerve to send me another fake apology mail when I didn't even responded to the first. Does he actually think I am that stupid?
He is really hurting me. But because I really love that stupid idiot, I am not going to be the one who ends it. I am going to wait until he decides to tell me the truth.
And until then I don't think I want to have any contact with him at all. Because it makes me so sad. And it hurts.
And I HATE to be the person who totally falls in love with someone, and then time after time get dumped.
I seriously wonder, what is wrong with me? Why can't I find someone who actually cares and seriously loves me.
I don't think I want to try anymore. Fuck school. I was only going there so I could stay here and be with him. Totally wasting my time it seems.
But what the hell should I do!?
I can't go home to Sweden and accept defeat can I? Can I?
torsdag 30 september 2010
Anger management anyone?
I am really angry at the moment.
There is no new thing that I really dislike companies like CSN, SI and Gouda for various reasons. But what they all have in common is that they are all bloodsucking leeches. For real. CSN don't want us to live proper lives in Japan and give us less and less money. SI wants to have a bigger share of the cake, and raises the prices every year. And Gouda don't care if you are dying, they just don't want to give you any money at all.
But this was seriously the worst. I mailed my contact person on SI today and told her that I had paid their bills. And I told her that I hoped that I had done everything right. But instead of checking with the economy department or whatever she totally disrespectful towards me and tells me that; "That's my own responsibility to know stuff like that and that if I did anything wrong, well, then it sucks to be me. Because then they will charge me extra, for making it wrong."
OMG!? Is it supposed to be like that? Are they really allowed to be that rude to us? We are in fact their customers, and that would in the practic make them obliged to treat us nice, so we still want to "buy" their product, right? I mean seriously?
I have had huge amounts of problems with theese 3 companies over the past year. And... I am getting really tired.. I mean... okey....CSN is behaving lika asses all the time, towards EVERYONE. But they are the only ones that can help up afford to study abroud. But Gouda and Si... what the hell are they thinking? I mean...there are tons of other companies just like them out there who would be happy to have me/us as their customers. But they just don't care do they?
God. I wish them all the suffering and pain we have felt this past year. The many days we couldn't afford to eat, the days we were in so much pain we had to go to the hospital, the days we couldn't go to school, because we didn't have the money.
I wish they would feel it for themselves.
Haha, I know I sounds like a spoiled brat now, but ...could you survive a year on 2 onigiris a day? Because, that's the way they want us to live. That we get sick and can't go to school because of that... well... that's our own fault.
And I guess I could find a job.. but yeah... let's face it.. it's not that easy. Because I am a foreigner, I can't get that many jobs. And the jobs I CAN get, I can't take, because they are illegal or have the wrong working hours. I wish I were a korean or a chinese person. Because seriously, ALL of my korean and chinese friends have jobs. Not good jobs, but jobs. Because they can work in chinese or korean restaurants. And I am jealous. Really jealous.
I would take pretty much any job, that wouldn't kick me out of the country. But the competition is....horrible.
So... what to do what to do?
Well yeah... all I CAN do, is to eat 2 onigiris a day and shut up about it.
There is no new thing that I really dislike companies like CSN, SI and Gouda for various reasons. But what they all have in common is that they are all bloodsucking leeches. For real. CSN don't want us to live proper lives in Japan and give us less and less money. SI wants to have a bigger share of the cake, and raises the prices every year. And Gouda don't care if you are dying, they just don't want to give you any money at all.
But this was seriously the worst. I mailed my contact person on SI today and told her that I had paid their bills. And I told her that I hoped that I had done everything right. But instead of checking with the economy department or whatever she totally disrespectful towards me and tells me that; "That's my own responsibility to know stuff like that and that if I did anything wrong, well, then it sucks to be me. Because then they will charge me extra, for making it wrong."
OMG!? Is it supposed to be like that? Are they really allowed to be that rude to us? We are in fact their customers, and that would in the practic make them obliged to treat us nice, so we still want to "buy" their product, right? I mean seriously?
I have had huge amounts of problems with theese 3 companies over the past year. And... I am getting really tired.. I mean... okey....CSN is behaving lika asses all the time, towards EVERYONE. But they are the only ones that can help up afford to study abroud. But Gouda and Si... what the hell are they thinking? I mean...there are tons of other companies just like them out there who would be happy to have me/us as their customers. But they just don't care do they?
God. I wish them all the suffering and pain we have felt this past year. The many days we couldn't afford to eat, the days we were in so much pain we had to go to the hospital, the days we couldn't go to school, because we didn't have the money.
I wish they would feel it for themselves.
Haha, I know I sounds like a spoiled brat now, but ...could you survive a year on 2 onigiris a day? Because, that's the way they want us to live. That we get sick and can't go to school because of that... well... that's our own fault.
And I guess I could find a job.. but yeah... let's face it.. it's not that easy. Because I am a foreigner, I can't get that many jobs. And the jobs I CAN get, I can't take, because they are illegal or have the wrong working hours. I wish I were a korean or a chinese person. Because seriously, ALL of my korean and chinese friends have jobs. Not good jobs, but jobs. Because they can work in chinese or korean restaurants. And I am jealous. Really jealous.
I would take pretty much any job, that wouldn't kick me out of the country. But the competition is....horrible.
So... what to do what to do?
Well yeah... all I CAN do, is to eat 2 onigiris a day and shut up about it.
tisdag 14 september 2010
Don't you strutt that ass to me!
Omg. I am so tired of struck up bitches who can't stop struttin' their asses and shit. I mean, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! Give it a rest will ya? You are not BETTER than anyone else. You could be nice gals, but instead you're killing every ounce of respect I ever had for you. Shame on you. Nobody likes a "skrytmåns" as it's called in Swedish.
I will never, ever respect your way of living. And that's a fact. If you can't be more respectful to people with lesser incom, no rich parents, not that nice clothes and not that many skills when it comes to school and achivements I will never respect you :)
Maybe you think that I'm a two headed bitch for saying this, but hey, I don't care. Just because I'm not the same person as you are you can't treat me like I'm less worth than you. Because, that just ain't right. Didn't you moma told you to treat people as you yourself want to be treated? Well, my did.
Off for a smoke, and then I think I have to wake up the snoring, sleeping beauty in my bed, haha.
Think his work starts in 2 hours or so... or.. well.. I hope so... because he never told me his working hours today. lol. I hope he starts 5... and not...2... omg.. I hope he don't blame me for not waking him then, haha.
Yeye
I will never, ever respect your way of living. And that's a fact. If you can't be more respectful to people with lesser incom, no rich parents, not that nice clothes and not that many skills when it comes to school and achivements I will never respect you :)
Maybe you think that I'm a two headed bitch for saying this, but hey, I don't care. Just because I'm not the same person as you are you can't treat me like I'm less worth than you. Because, that just ain't right. Didn't you moma told you to treat people as you yourself want to be treated? Well, my did.
Off for a smoke, and then I think I have to wake up the snoring, sleeping beauty in my bed, haha.
Think his work starts in 2 hours or so... or.. well.. I hope so... because he never told me his working hours today. lol. I hope he starts 5... and not...2... omg.. I hope he don't blame me for not waking him then, haha.
Yeye
lördag 4 september 2010
Chocolate Disco / Perfect Weapon
Okey.
I don't know where this post is comming from or anything... but just listen/watch the songs, okey? One of them is a cute girlband from Japan who sings about "Chocolate disco". It's so awesome it's creepy. lol. And the other band is a band from America, and some of you would call them emo, and some of you would call them harcore. Well, labeling is for morans, so I just call it really great music.
Well, that's about all I wanted to say. That's two really good bands, and ... as I told ya before, listen...watch. They are awesome.
I don't know where this post is comming from or anything... but just listen/watch the songs, okey? One of them is a cute girlband from Japan who sings about "Chocolate disco". It's so awesome it's creepy. lol. And the other band is a band from America, and some of you would call them emo, and some of you would call them harcore. Well, labeling is for morans, so I just call it really great music.
Well, that's about all I wanted to say. That's two really good bands, and ... as I told ya before, listen...watch. They are awesome.
tisdag 31 augusti 2010
Cry much?
Oh yeah...
I haven't cried this much to a movie since... hm... seriously, I can't remember.
What could be worse, seriously? I won't spoil anything, but...I really recommend this movie to everyone. Okey, maybe not to my friend M. He would totally bash it. But that's just because he's a moran. (love ya anyway M) No, but seriously!
Especially you P (you know who you are<3). I think you would love it. And you should recommend both S and S to see it too. I would tell them, but neither of them are reading my blog. (buhuuuu. : ( )
(And yeah, it's a bad pic, but I'm tired and don't have the time to find a good one. blablabla)
And yeah, it's Rob Pattinson, and YES, he is awesome without the sparkles and the golden eyes. I'm not bashing, bcuz you all know I love TTS. So fu.
And yes 2, it's claer (how the fuck do you spell that name) from Lost. And she is awesome. So awesome.
Going to bed. Big kanjitest tomorrow.
lördag 28 augusti 2010
måndag 23 augusti 2010
Chocolate Rain
I am not okey.
Or I guess... I don't know.
I could really use a dancing man dressed up as a strawberry right now.
Will upload some pics from Daisukes memorial soon... today... or tomorrow... Just got them today so...
Or I guess... I don't know.
I could really use a dancing man dressed up as a strawberry right now.
Will upload some pics from Daisukes memorial soon... today... or tomorrow... Just got them today so...
torsdag 12 augusti 2010
Krrrr..
Just decided I am really going to try to go to Daisukes memorial service the 16th of Agust at zepp tokyo.
"It will begin at 4:30pm and ending at 11:00pm. The last reception will be at 10:30pm. For the event they ask that you wear only casual clothing. The flower offering is open to all who may come to honor Daisuke."
I am not only going for my own sake but also as a favor to a friend, who is a really big (or was) Daisuke and Kagrou fan. The problem is that you can only give one flower each, and that's a problem since I want to give one from myself, but also one from my friend. But we will figure it out somehow.
Going to eat lunch with my father in 30 minutes. And then buy batteries and chokolate. I am seriously not in the mood. Stupid trip. Sweden I love you, but you're bringing me down. And also, Tokyo I REALLY love you, but you're REALLY bringin me down. Pah.
Btw, it's my brothers birthday today. Happy b-day bro! I love you <3
Well, I guess I'm off for a smoke. 7 hours left until I leave Sweden for another year or so. <3
"It will begin at 4:30pm and ending at 11:00pm. The last reception will be at 10:30pm. For the event they ask that you wear only casual clothing. The flower offering is open to all who may come to honor Daisuke."
I am not only going for my own sake but also as a favor to a friend, who is a really big (or was) Daisuke and Kagrou fan. The problem is that you can only give one flower each, and that's a problem since I want to give one from myself, but also one from my friend. But we will figure it out somehow.
Going to eat lunch with my father in 30 minutes. And then buy batteries and chokolate. I am seriously not in the mood. Stupid trip. Sweden I love you, but you're bringing me down. And also, Tokyo I REALLY love you, but you're REALLY bringin me down. Pah.
Btw, it's my brothers birthday today. Happy b-day bro! I love you <3
Well, I guess I'm off for a smoke. 7 hours left until I leave Sweden for another year or so. <3
Why so serious?
It's just a few hours left for me in this oh so cold country, before I return to the country as hot as the gates of hell. Ueh.
I am feeling sentimental...I acctually... don't want to go back.
I don't want to return to the place closest to my heart. I don't want to return to my wonderful mans arms. I don't want to return to my friends, my school, my life...I don't want to.
I can't sleep. Odd huh? Every single night since I returned to my home country, I have been sleeping like a baby. But now, when I know what is waiting tomorrow, I can't sleep. I am acctually...afraid..to go back. Haha. Right now I just want...safe. Home. Mother. Father. Siblings. Dog. Friends. Best friends. Safe. Comfortable.
WAH I AM SO SPOILED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Change of subject.
Due to my lack of sleep I grew rather restless, tried to call some friends, became tired, hung up, became restless, took a smoke, became tired, stepped inside, became restless....and so on. So I ended up browsing through my fathers new blue ray movies and choosed "Scorpionking 2 - rise of a warrior" or something klyshe like that. lol.
It was really bad..but at the same time REALLY awesome. Slendid fighting scenes, very puuuuuuuuurdy men, sexy women....it had everything. lol.
So now I am really extatic about it, and can't sleep. Haha.
The maincharacter, Michael Copon, was seriously....the best I've seen in months.
(Hm...well...at least since last week...I mean...Jacob....Embry...grrrrrrrrrrrrr<3)
I mean, LOOK AT HIM!
Now I am going to bed, to try to catch some sleep. :)
I really hope I can get away from this horrid feeling until tomorrow. I don't know if I can manage to ...live through this another day. Pffh. It's exhausting.
Well..I love you mother. <3
G'nighty.
I am feeling sentimental...I acctually... don't want to go back.
I don't want to return to the place closest to my heart. I don't want to return to my wonderful mans arms. I don't want to return to my friends, my school, my life...I don't want to.
I can't sleep. Odd huh? Every single night since I returned to my home country, I have been sleeping like a baby. But now, when I know what is waiting tomorrow, I can't sleep. I am acctually...afraid..to go back. Haha. Right now I just want...safe. Home. Mother. Father. Siblings. Dog. Friends. Best friends. Safe. Comfortable.
WAH I AM SO SPOILED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Change of subject. Due to my lack of sleep I grew rather restless, tried to call some friends, became tired, hung up, became restless, took a smoke, became tired, stepped inside, became restless....and so on. So I ended up browsing through my fathers new blue ray movies and choosed "Scorpionking 2 - rise of a warrior" or something klyshe like that. lol.
It was really bad..but at the same time REALLY awesome. Slendid fighting scenes, very puuuuuuuuurdy men, sexy women....it had everything. lol.
So now I am really extatic about it, and can't sleep. Haha.
The maincharacter, Michael Copon, was seriously....the best I've seen in months.
(Hm...well...at least since last week...I mean...Jacob....Embry...grrrrrrrrrrrrr<3)
I mean, LOOK AT HIM!
Now I am going to bed, to try to catch some sleep. :)I really hope I can get away from this horrid feeling until tomorrow. I don't know if I can manage to ...live through this another day. Pffh. It's exhausting.
Well..I love you mother. <3
G'nighty.
tisdag 27 juli 2010
onsdag 21 juli 2010
It still lingers on..
What the hell am I doing? And why the hell am I here?
Ueh.
Stupid day with stupid thoughs.
I coughed myself through a really hard and annoying test in school today.
Hopefully I didn't fail that hard. :) ehe.
Have enother test tomorrow, because I missed the one yesterday.
I'm not looking forward to it, and I don't feel like studying. :)
It's too hot.
Btw, I am so tired of my weak ass body right now. >_<
Shape up for fucks sake! I don't have time to be sick all the time. :S
No I mean SERIOUSLY!? I realized today how bad it was when my korean friend Deon-san said that he would bring me some cold medicine, and I was like "いいえ、大丈夫だよ。 薬がある。" and he answered that with;"Okey, but it can't be that good medicine? Be'cuz you have been sick since June?"
Have it really been that long since I was well? O_O Seriously?
WAH!
And if that wasn't enough I came across this annoying girl today. >_< Gah, I can't stand her. Wah, I want to hang out with M and trashtalk people we don't know. <3 God, I need some gossip and badmouthing. Seriously. I miss my girlfriends.
And I need the "Eh!? SHUT THE FUCK UP!?" instead of the "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH!?"s and the "USSSSSSOOOOOO!?"... I am so tired..
I just want to put something on their mouths when they get thoose highpitched disgusting voices. >_< Ew. I want Sweden. I need a vacation! NOW!
I am going to get so fat! <3 Yummy yummy swedish food instead of..rice... and...rice.. ><
Right now, I feel like locking myself into my apartment, listening to phantom of the opera soundtrack, for the rest of the time until it's time to go to Sweden with E and Y. <3 But that's impossible to pull off....I mean... I will get a visitor in just a couple of hours... and... I look terrible, feel terrible and feel like being terrible. Blueh. I hope I can keep my mouth shut. :(
Neh, now it's time for cigarettes, frontierville and later on some One Piece episodes... then a shower... and then study... I guess I should clean too... poor T... he always has to withstand my messy sides. lol.
Byew
Ueh.
Stupid day with stupid thoughs.
I coughed myself through a really hard and annoying test in school today.
Hopefully I didn't fail that hard. :) ehe.
Have enother test tomorrow, because I missed the one yesterday.
I'm not looking forward to it, and I don't feel like studying. :)
It's too hot.
Btw, I am so tired of my weak ass body right now. >_<
Shape up for fucks sake! I don't have time to be sick all the time. :S
No I mean SERIOUSLY!? I realized today how bad it was when my korean friend Deon-san said that he would bring me some cold medicine, and I was like "いいえ、大丈夫だよ。 薬がある。" and he answered that with;"Okey, but it can't be that good medicine? Be'cuz you have been sick since June?"
Have it really been that long since I was well? O_O Seriously?
WAH!
And if that wasn't enough I came across this annoying girl today. >_< Gah, I can't stand her. Wah, I want to hang out with M and trashtalk people we don't know. <3 God, I need some gossip and badmouthing. Seriously. I miss my girlfriends.
And I need the "Eh!? SHUT THE FUCK UP!?" instead of the "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH!?"s and the "USSSSSSOOOOOO!?"... I am so tired..
I just want to put something on their mouths when they get thoose highpitched disgusting voices. >_< Ew. I want Sweden. I need a vacation! NOW!
I am going to get so fat! <3 Yummy yummy swedish food instead of..rice... and...rice.. ><
Right now, I feel like locking myself into my apartment, listening to phantom of the opera soundtrack, for the rest of the time until it's time to go to Sweden with E and Y. <3 But that's impossible to pull off....I mean... I will get a visitor in just a couple of hours... and... I look terrible, feel terrible and feel like being terrible. Blueh. I hope I can keep my mouth shut. :(
Neh, now it's time for cigarettes, frontierville and later on some One Piece episodes... then a shower... and then study... I guess I should clean too... poor T... he always has to withstand my messy sides. lol.
Byew
måndag 19 juli 2010
We are
Ueh... I feel so bad. And I think I might have to re-think some stuff in my calculations.. hm... stupid people do stupid things...
First of all; Why the hell are you tortouring me?
Second; Why are YOU so ungrateful?
Third; Why don't you want friends?
To sum it up. Right now, everyone and everything sucks. You are all shit.
Tomorrow is thankfully NO SCHOOL, wiiiie, so I can maybe get the chance to lose some of this horrid coughing are lightheadness.
And yeah, btw, no I don't hate you all. Some of you are still great, and you know who you are <3
Now bugger off will ya?
First of all; Why the hell are you tortouring me?
Second; Why are YOU so ungrateful?
Third; Why don't you want friends?
To sum it up. Right now, everyone and everything sucks. You are all shit.
Tomorrow is thankfully NO SCHOOL, wiiiie, so I can maybe get the chance to lose some of this horrid coughing are lightheadness.
And yeah, btw, no I don't hate you all. Some of you are still great, and you know who you are <3
Now bugger off will ya?
fredag 16 juli 2010
R.I.P 大佑
Sleep well 大佑様 <3
You are always in our hearts. <3
Today one of the greatest men in japanese music history died a sudden death, most likely because of his weak heart. The terrible and sad new have been shaking us all evening. I don't think... I can even describe how I feel right now...I have no other feelings than.. sadness. I send all his friends and family my condolenses. I am so sorry for your loss.
May you rest in peace 大佑様. <3
You will never be forgotten.
tisdag 13 juli 2010
I'm loving angels instead
Today one of my chinese classmates admitted that he was gay.
Because my teacher was like "When you talk to your girlfriend on the phone, do you get happy?" And he was like "Eh...acctually.. I am gay." And the reactions he got was horrible :( People were laughing, moving away from him (even his best friends!?) and my teacher were like "Then you should move to 2-chome, ehehe"
I mean WTF!? And I mean, they were SERIOUS!? I don't like my class anymore. Stupid prehistorical opinions....
The only good thing today was when I was working together with Choi-san and Rikai-san. They are both really cute. And Choi-san decided she wanted to know more about me or something, haha? :P What was that all about? Well, yeah I can't complain, I don't really have any friends in class now, so... she was like "When is your birthday?, why did you come to Japan?, what did you study in highschool?" lol. びっくりした！ But it made me happy.
It was hell going to school today. Still feel really sick. But I am happy I went. Because... I really don't want to miss anymore school now. :( Like.. today my Swedish friend got like... his final warning. >_< He's been absent from school too much... so if he can't make it like..100% this month they will have to expell him.
I have like... kind of okey attendance, but... I am still worried. I don't want shit like that to destroy my life in Japan.
Well... luckyli it's just like... 2 weeks until the summerbreak and SWEDEN!! <3 YAY!
I am so looking forward to meeting my friends, my family and my little baby-Elma! <3
Gosh, I am soooooo hungry :(
So I think I will eat the ramen E and M bought me yesterday. Maybe watch some episodes of gossipgirl? :) Or one piece? :D
Or just eat and listen to The baseballs.... grrr.... I never get tired of them really!
Hoho, I am thinking about maybe make this blog public to my friends? But there are still ppl I don't want to read it though... hm... I'll see...
Janee~
Because my teacher was like "When you talk to your girlfriend on the phone, do you get happy?" And he was like "Eh...acctually.. I am gay." And the reactions he got was horrible :( People were laughing, moving away from him (even his best friends!?) and my teacher were like "Then you should move to 2-chome, ehehe"
I mean WTF!? And I mean, they were SERIOUS!? I don't like my class anymore. Stupid prehistorical opinions....
The only good thing today was when I was working together with Choi-san and Rikai-san. They are both really cute. And Choi-san decided she wanted to know more about me or something, haha? :P What was that all about? Well, yeah I can't complain, I don't really have any friends in class now, so... she was like "When is your birthday?, why did you come to Japan?, what did you study in highschool?" lol. びっくりした！ But it made me happy.
It was hell going to school today. Still feel really sick. But I am happy I went. Because... I really don't want to miss anymore school now. :( Like.. today my Swedish friend got like... his final warning. >_< He's been absent from school too much... so if he can't make it like..100% this month they will have to expell him.
I have like... kind of okey attendance, but... I am still worried. I don't want shit like that to destroy my life in Japan.
Well... luckyli it's just like... 2 weeks until the summerbreak and SWEDEN!! <3 YAY!
I am so looking forward to meeting my friends, my family and my little baby-Elma! <3
Gosh, I am soooooo hungry :(
So I think I will eat the ramen E and M bought me yesterday. Maybe watch some episodes of gossipgirl? :) Or one piece? :D
Or just eat and listen to The baseballs.... grrr.... I never get tired of them really!
Hoho, I am thinking about maybe make this blog public to my friends? But there are still ppl I don't want to read it though... hm... I'll see...
Janee~
måndag 12 juli 2010
Hey there failure.
I am such a failure. Seriously. I suck so hard it's not even funny.
I couldn't manage to go to school today. But well, I had reasons! :(
For example;
1. I slept all and all around 3 hours at the most
2. I am sick.
3. Troath hurts
4. Nose is totally clogged
5. Head hurts
6. Really bad cough
7. Think I have a fever
But there are also reasons why I suck so hard for staying home.
For example;
1. Hori-sensei will be terrible mad at me tomorrow
2. If we have any homeworks till tomorrow, I wouldn't know
3. I missed some really important explanations on some kanjis I don't understand
4. My attendance will be worse again
5. I won't understand a word tomorrow
6. Someone is ringing my doorbell, and I'm to scared to open
But there are also some good stuff comming out of me staying at home.
Such as;
1. I finally felt like I slept enough
2. I will save some money today, because I don't have to take the train to school
3. S may take pity in me and bring me some yummie 100yen cookies
So hm... what will I do today? Well.... it's already 15.38 so... I guess I will smoke for some hours...wait for the people working in the apartment next to mine will go away so I can buy me something to eat...Maybe watch the episode of Gossipgirl I didn't had the strenght to watch yesterday. Play some frontierville?
Who knows? Well... I can't sleep anymore so... I have to do something.
It's a brand new start - if it's good or bad? Well...we'll see.
Yeaha.
I don't know what made me do this.
Maybe it's a really bad thing to do.
I already have a blog. Well.. two other blogs acctually.
But... I don't feel like... it's me anymore.
It's just... someplace where I bitch and moan, but always have to think about what I write, because almost everyone I know read it. Ueh.
I hate that. To have like... a limit to what I can and can't write.
People I can and can't hurt.
Well, this blog is for me. A new start. Hopefully of something better.
Today was great.
I woke up next to the person I love, Tomo-cha~n. We had decided to go see a movie in Shinjuku, so we had to get up pretty early (around 1 in the afternoon.. And yeah THAT'S EARLY). But we failed ofcourse. I acctually managed to get up att around 2pm, but I didn't really feel the urge to wake up the little trol. So I let him sleep for another hour while I put on the mask(the mask of makeup and so on). Then I got stuck in front of my computer as usual, (playing heroes 3 makes me forget my own name for gods sake) so when I finally decided to wake him, he realized we had missed the movie. Oops... Well, we decided to see Toy story 3 in 3D instead, and that meant time for some lazy cozy time in bed. I love that about having a partner that totally sucks at english (and yeha, I suck at Japanese so..eehe) it leaves more space for cozy cuddling and non-verbal experiences. lol.
Yeah... why do I always get stuck on irrelevant stuff? Pfft.
Well, we ate soba, smoked till we couldn't breathe (yeah we are both trying to stop smoking lol) and then saw the friggin' movie. It was awesome btw. Totally worth...his money. Ueh. I get so spoiled when I have a wonderful man in my life. I have to remember to tell him to be less nice to me or something. lol.
Then we went home, spent some hours in bed, and then he went home to Saitama.
After that I tried to spend som "Malin-time" watching Gossipgirl (oh how I missed that show) but that didn't really worked out as I wanted it to...hrpf.
Well... now I am stuck mailing with this weird Japanese guy who can't seem to get my hints that I have no interest in him whatsoever... and I can't sleep. Yeeey.
Life is brilliant, and I want to die.
School starts in 4 hours and I haven't slept at all.
Fuck it.
Well... I think that makes for my first ...what the fuck is the word in english? Ad? Eh, whatever. Goodnight bitches and spacemens.
~
I don't know what made me do this.
Maybe it's a really bad thing to do.
I already have a blog. Well.. two other blogs acctually.
But... I don't feel like... it's me anymore.
It's just... someplace where I bitch and moan, but always have to think about what I write, because almost everyone I know read it. Ueh.
I hate that. To have like... a limit to what I can and can't write.
People I can and can't hurt.
Well, this blog is for me. A new start. Hopefully of something better.
Today was great.
I woke up next to the person I love, Tomo-cha~n. We had decided to go see a movie in Shinjuku, so we had to get up pretty early (around 1 in the afternoon.. And yeah THAT'S EARLY). But we failed ofcourse. I acctually managed to get up att around 2pm, but I didn't really feel the urge to wake up the little trol. So I let him sleep for another hour while I put on the mask(the mask of makeup and so on). Then I got stuck in front of my computer as usual, (playing heroes 3 makes me forget my own name for gods sake) so when I finally decided to wake him, he realized we had missed the movie. Oops... Well, we decided to see Toy story 3 in 3D instead, and that meant time for some lazy cozy time in bed. I love that about having a partner that totally sucks at english (and yeha, I suck at Japanese so..eehe) it leaves more space for cozy cuddling and non-verbal experiences. lol.
Yeah... why do I always get stuck on irrelevant stuff? Pfft.
Well, we ate soba, smoked till we couldn't breathe (yeah we are both trying to stop smoking lol) and then saw the friggin' movie. It was awesome btw. Totally worth...his money. Ueh. I get so spoiled when I have a wonderful man in my life. I have to remember to tell him to be less nice to me or something. lol.
Then we went home, spent some hours in bed, and then he went home to Saitama.
After that I tried to spend som "Malin-time" watching Gossipgirl (oh how I missed that show) but that didn't really worked out as I wanted it to...hrpf.
Well... now I am stuck mailing with this weird Japanese guy who can't seem to get my hints that I have no interest in him whatsoever... and I can't sleep. Yeeey.
Life is brilliant, and I want to die.
School starts in 4 hours and I haven't slept at all.
Fuck it.
Well... I think that makes for my first ...what the fuck is the word in english? Ad? Eh, whatever. Goodnight bitches and spacemens.
~
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