Why so serious?

It's just a few hours left for me in this oh so cold country, before I return to the country as hot as the gates of hell. Ueh.
I am feeling sentimental...I acctually... don't want to go back.
I don't want to return to the place closest to my heart. I don't want to return to my wonderful mans arms. I don't want to return to my friends, my school, my life...I don't want to.

I can't sleep. Odd huh? Every single night since I returned to my home country, I have been sleeping like a baby. But now, when I know what is waiting tomorrow, I can't sleep. I am acctually...afraid..to go back. Haha. Right now I just want...safe. Home. Mother. Father. Siblings. Dog. Friends. Best friends. Safe. Comfortable.

WAH I AM SO SPOILED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Change of subject.
Due to my lack of sleep I grew rather restless, tried to call some friends, became tired, hung up, became restless, took a smoke, became tired, stepped inside, became restless....and so on. So I ended up browsing through my fathers new blue ray movies and choosed "Scorpionking 2 - rise of a warrior" or something klyshe like that. lol.
It was really bad..but at the same time REALLY awesome. Slendid fighting scenes, very puuuuuuuuurdy men, sexy women....it had everything. lol.
So now I am really extatic about it, and can't sleep. Haha.
The maincharacter, Michael Copon, was seriously....the best I've seen in months.
(Hm...well...at least since last week...I mean...Jacob....Embry...grrrrrrrrrrrrr<3)
I mean, LOOK AT HIM!

Now I am going to bed, to try to catch some sleep. :)
I really hope I can get away from this horrid feeling until tomorrow. I don't know if I can manage to ...live through this another day. Pffh. It's exhausting.

Well..I love you mother. <3
G'nighty.