Anger management anyone?

I am really angry at the moment.
There is no new thing that I really dislike companies like CSN, SI and Gouda for various reasons. But what they all have in common is that they are all bloodsucking leeches. For real. CSN don't want us to live proper lives in Japan and give us less and less money. SI wants to have a bigger share of the cake, and raises the prices every year. And Gouda don't care if you are dying, they just don't want to give you any money at all.

But this was seriously the worst. I mailed my contact person on SI today and told her that I had paid their bills. And I told her that I hoped that I had done everything right. But instead of checking with the economy department or whatever she totally disrespectful towards me and tells me that; "That's my own responsibility to know stuff like that and that if I did anything wrong, well, then it sucks to be me. Because then they will charge me extra, for making it wrong."

OMG!? Is it supposed to be like that? Are they really allowed to be that rude to us? We are in fact their customers, and that would in the practic make them obliged to treat us nice, so we still want to "buy" their product, right? I mean seriously?
I have had huge amounts of problems with theese 3 companies over the past year. And... I am getting really tired.. I mean... okey....CSN is behaving lika asses all the time, towards EVERYONE. But they are the only ones that can help up afford to study abroud. But Gouda and Si... what the hell are they thinking? I mean...there are tons of other companies just like them out there who would be happy to have me/us as their customers. But they just don't care do they?

God. I wish them all the suffering and pain we have felt this past year. The many days we couldn't afford to eat, the days we were in so much pain we had to go to the hospital, the days we couldn't go to school, because we didn't have the money.
I wish they would feel it for themselves.

Haha, I know I sounds like a spoiled brat now, but ...could you survive a year on 2 onigiris a day? Because, that's the way they want us to live. That we get sick and can't go to school because of that... well... that's our own fault.

And I guess I could find a job.. but yeah... let's face it.. it's not that easy. Because I am a foreigner, I can't get that many jobs. And the jobs I CAN get, I can't take, because they are illegal or have the wrong working hours. I wish I were a korean or a chinese person. Because seriously, ALL of my korean and chinese friends have jobs. Not good jobs, but jobs. Because they can work in chinese or korean restaurants. And I am jealous. Really jealous.

I would take pretty much any job, that wouldn't kick me out of the country. But the competition is....horrible.

So... what to do what to do?
Well yeah... all I CAN do, is to eat 2 onigiris a day and shut up about it.